Hitting A Wall & Test Taking Blues

This semester has felt like running into a brick wall. I have been going to school straight through since last spring without breaks. I am realizing that may help to cut down my overall time in school but it is killing me. I took 2 classes last Spring semester and then transitioned within a week to back-to-back Summer sessions. Then 3 classes in the fall, a J-term class that started the week after Fall finals and Spring 12' semester that overlapped J-term. Phew!

I noticed I have not been enjoying classes at all. I just have two because of the Computer Science class I took over J-term. So, as much as I really want to take summer classes to knock out more of my credits I just think I have to break for a time. I know Scott tells my I have to and my body-mind seems to be telling me the same thing.

With the slow march through Spring semester I have a huge Psychology test today. Of course, being the first of the semester always makes it harder. You don't know what to expect. The professors can give you handouts and study guides, but until you actually sit down and see how they truly set up their tests it's anyones guess. My biggest challenge with this test are the easy questions. Typically I like essay questions because it is easier for me to apply information I am learning then ramble off memorized facts. However, these are 6 extreme easy questions. The depth and amount of information needed in one essay alone is worth 2 pages of single spaced handwritten notes. Uhg!! So it has been a long week of studying and memorizing and praying that I can pass. I am so hard on myself, the idea of getting a B in the class is driving me insane. So far I have a 4.0 average since restarting after all these years and I just can't accept getting a B in Psychology.

Well, we will have to see. All I do now is count down the days to summer break and hopefully I can find a refreshing new start next fall. I know getting an art class back in my schedule will be helpful to reinvigorate me. Now back to studying!

Art Class 2011

This was a Ink Wash I had to do. I choose a
Georgia O'Keefe painting as my inspiration and used sea shells my boys collected from a trip we took to Myrtle Beach two years ago.

These four pictures were my Final Project for the class. I choose Interiors as my subject and Charcoal as my medium. I was blessed as a great friend of ours allowed me to use their house as my interior.

This was my first interior I attempted in class.

The class was very intense and demanding but I learned a lot, as it was my first classical drawing class. I was challenge by the teacher constantly, not always in a positive way, but it led me to improving with each day. I was so glad to have taken this class. I have more portraits but they are figure drawings of nude models so I will just keep them to myself. I would not want to post them without the approval of the models so they will just have to stay in my portfolio. I am really hoping to move on to painting next semester. We will see how things go.

Psychology 110

Last night's hour drive to class allowed for much pondering. The afternoon was a mad dash to get the boys homework finished and wrapped up, and then getting dinner in the oven before heading out the door. There is a half hour segment of time where my oldest son, Shaggy, holds down the fort until my husband arrives from work adding to the already building anxiety.

All that time driving left me feeling guilting about being a mom and a student. Am I doing the right thing? Am I abandoning my kids? Other moms just stay home and I am off finishing my education; am I a bad mom? Lovely thoughts like these bounced around my brain as I sat staring at the highway speeding by in front of me.

The night class schedule is new to me. I have been able to take classes while the boys are in school or online up until now. This semester I had to take two night classes and I can feel the guilt they are producing in me. I just have to reassure myself that this is a good thing for our entire family and it is a positive experience for my kids to see that education is important.

The class itself is a mixed bag of traditional students and Adult Education Program majors. The young kids in the class just talked about the dumbest things. All I heard last night was about horses and the the course load these kids have. Believe me as a mom returning to school they have nothing to complain about. I wish my only concern was how to fit riding classes into my study schedule.

*Just a little side note Wilson College has an equestrian program and veterinarian program so lots of the students who live on campus work with the horses to some degree.

So back to the class, the professor is a very typical Psychology Professor. I have had three Psych classes now and each prof seems to be the same: not personable or approachable and gruff. I have been really spoiled by nice profs so far, except for an Art professor last semester but I would have to explain her in an entire post by itself.

My drive home consisted of getting a phone call from my kids telling me goodnight and wanting to hear my voice before bed. It's strange to leave a class after learning about Freud and Phineas Gage and then hear you kids telling you all about The Biggest Loser and what I missed at home. I feel like I am straddling two worlds; a mom and a student. You never fully leave one or the other but carefully try to balance all the plates so they keep spinning and don't fall down.

Today will consist of exercising, finishing up my J-Term class that overlapped with my Spring Semester, and preparing for another afternoon and evening of running around as I head to my Education class tonight at a local High School. I just have to keep looking at the larger picture and the end goal. I will post some of my pictures from my Art class I took last semester. I was hoping to add a minor to my major in Art Studio but we will have to see if I can fit that all in to my already bursting schedule.

Reinventing Myself and this Old Blog

After allowing this blog to become dormant and unattended I have decided to reinvent the mission of this blog. I am now calling it "Back 2 School Mom". Over the past year I have reinvented myself as a college student and so I thought I would do the same here.

Truthfully, my life has changed so much I had a hard time writing about motherhood and kids because things are different. All three boys are in school. I have 2 in middle school and 1 third grader. My days consist of keeping up with them, the house, my husband and my own schooling. I felt with a new mission for this blog I could re-engage with new passion to write again.

So here I will chronicle my journey as a mom returning to school after a very long hiatus. I have now been attending college for a year but just transferred to my 4 year school Wilson College. I will be pursuing my degree in Elementary Education.

Tonight is my first class of theSpring 12' semester and today is my first post for the new look.

I look forward to sharing my victories, struggles and pain of being a mom/wife and heading back to school. We will see how things go, eh!