Monday, February 23, 2009

What Am I Called To?

A lot has been rolling around in my head lately and most of it needs to be taken before the Lord. I get lost in my thoughts at times and need more Truth from the Lord. Recently though I have been wrestling with the question "What Am I Called To?" I am a stay at home mom with no kids in the house. In years gone by many would not have bat an eye about that but not so in today's world. I get many questions and looks about how could I possibly stay home when all the kids are in school. I have to go back to work because the economy demands it. You see if I were a home school mom I may have to debate the whole home school vs. public school topic but they wouldn't argue the staying at home vs. working. Most people understand if you are teaching your children you would need to be at home.

Unfortunately, I just get the raised eyebrows of why don't you work? Why don't you work from home? I even get the how can you talk about having a tight budget when you choose this type of lifestyle? It is your choice. Why don't you sell your goods and make a profit off your work? So many questions...sigh.

So I took it all to the Lord because I can no longer carry everyone's opinion and expectation of me. I just need to know what the Father thinks. This is what I heard.
The Lord has called me to my family and our home. He has even called me to Himself. He has called my husband and I to stand on His financial provision. He has called my husband and I to depend on Him and not our own means. He has called me to His people. He has called me to pour into prayer over my children, my husband, my friends and my family. He has called me to pray over our schools. He has called me to draw into His word and tell others of His truths. He has called me to be different.


You know, it's OK to be different and it's OK that God calls us to be called to various things. It doesn't make me less or better than anyone, it just makes me who God wanted me to be. And maybe in a few years my season will end and I will be called somewhere else. All I know is I need to be where He wants me to be right now.

Everything in my life can fall by the wayside as long as I am doing what God called me to do. My God, my husband and my children come first. Sewing, weaving, art, book writing, knitting, ministry and all my other things can be put to the side from time to time so that I don't miss what He has called me too. Don't get me wrong I love these things but if He calls me for an hour or more in prayer and worship that morning those things must be put aside. If my kids need their mama for the afternoon those things are pushed aside. I will put my love and pour my self out over the things of eternal value and those are God's people.

I just needed to get that off my chest. At least now with the Lord's truth in my heart I feel as though I can respond to those who have tried to place their own thought's and value's on me with the confidence of the Lord that I am doing what God has called me to do. So what is it God has called you to do in this season? State it and believe it! Don't let others expectations and ideas sway the voice of the Lord in your life. Remember the Father, your family, your children, your spouse and those people God has put in your life are the things of eternal value. Put your time and energy into them and you can never go wrong.

3 comments:

Kelli said...

There is a reason why this season is given to you,just like mine is for me. For you, deep things are being planted in your soil--things that, when they grow, will be huge trees that no one will be able to pull out. We are compared to trees a lot in the Bible. In another season or two, we may see why this one was so needed.

Thank you so much for being such a real member of the body. For focusing on growth and stability and not just works and giftings. You are such a gift to the body, and really to all who know you. I am often in awe of your quiet grace and strength. Thank you for being a good example of a good wife, mother and servant. I'm glad that we're on the same team.

Beautiful Grace said...

Doing what God has called you to do always stirs some level of controversy-be assured that the "raised eyebrows" confirm that.

Thanks for your prayers!!!

After His heart said...

My dear sweet "daughter", if only you were born earlier, you would see that the former generation of women never asked this question because they realized the value of loving and serving their God and their family. Breathe it in afresh, there are somethings that really aren't meant to change.

It is sad that many women today have bought a lie, I'm not worth anything if I'm only a wife and mothe. Being a wife and mother is one of the most precious gifts a women is given. And caring for those given to us can be one of the most rewarding pleasures of life.